haha, DA gave a bunch of people the 300K view, but I know that happens and was kind of expecting it.


- do you guys mind if I combine your shipping? You live near each other?


If you guys just wanna pick out 5 postcards each from here [link] and then note me with your requests and addresses, I'll get everything shipped soon! c:

And awwww

You were close, so you get a journal feature at least. >< Thanks for trying and noting me!

Thank you so much everybody!
I really enjoy the DA community and such. ^^
And wow, it was something like 400 views away and then they all just blew by after 10 minutes, that was fast. D8 I was thinking it would happen just sometime today.

Veeeery cloooooooooooooooose. The one who catches the 300K gets the postcards! Five of them, your choice, from the postcard pile. [link]

D8 It's really amazing how popular this pony painting has become. Very few of my illustrations have ever been so liked. Too bad it seems like it's almost impossible to print decently. 8( I did a test print and it was dark and muddy and bleck. But just imagine the sort of NICE print job that I can't really afford but that this contest could provide >3<

dreamwishdream.

oh printing. T__T

Yeah that's 6000 5000 4000 2500!! page views away. o3o Geeesh This is going quite fast! I guess people must actually be refreshing to try and catch the page view! Maybe this will actually happen in August. That would be kind of nice. XD

All you have to do is screencap the 300,000 view and you can pick 5 postcards from my full collection of cards. X3

I'm sitting at the back of the room this year, directly in your way as you pass between the bathroom and the exit! ^____^



_{haha this is ~Blue-Ten's map. Nice and pretty, so I stole it, never mind that I'm not Everblue. >__>;}

How my bathroom location will work out for you:



OR you could consider stopping by my table of your own free will. That would also be acceptable, if you'd rather I didn't rub prints all over your face.

Maybe other people have already listened to this before I have done: [link] If you haven't, it could be a fun listen, if you have studio time to work through.

But I'm so intensely fascinated by this

Even mind blown?

BECAUSE SO MANY THINGS ARE MAKING SENSE TO ME RIGHT NOW.

The first part of this podcast discusses how light fractures into bits, yes we know. And then how eyes see color, yes we know. How different eyes of species can perceive color differently, aware of this yes.  It's the last part of this podcast that is SOOOO interesting to me, where it talks about colors, paint pigments, and finally history of pigments.

I've been aware that certain pigments are really rare, like anything blue. Or poisonous, I own some of that too. 8D Only in the past century or two I think have synthetic blues existed for painting. Even now I have to work REALLY HARD at getting certain blues, usually by mixing certain other blues, which are disastrously expensive blues (I spend a lot of money on paint.)

And I remember learning about Egyptian art and some famous instances of blue. It wasn't really important to me at the time.

I've read Homer's works, and did find the descriptions to be ... COLORFUL? But I didn't think much about it, I just thought it was theatrical. Especially considering the subject matter. O_o The descriptions just seemed to fit right in with the crazy.

This podcast discusses these things and then goes on to talk about ---- I shouldn't spoil it for you.

Not that everything said here is true, of course, just very interesting theories.

I've worked in two frame shops. At the second shop, my boss had worked as a framer in several locations. At the time I worked for him, he was framing in a desert city that is predominantly brown and sage and red in color/spirit/aura. (Have you ever contemplated color auras? That's something else entirely.) He told me some feelings he had on framing and selling art - he not only custom framed things, but also sold framed decor. What he said was that different cities have different tastes in color decoration, mostly focused on the colors of their environments. In this brown and sage and red city, NO ONE BUYS BLUE. Meanwhile, a few hours away in Seattle, EVERYONE BUYS BLUE. What colors are Seattle? Blue and slate.

Immediately after he described this to me, my first question was "But the sky is blue?" Everyone is under a blue sky. He had no explanation for it other than that the sky didn't qualify as an environment decor object. Horror movies have taught us all that we never look up, so maybe that's it.

This conversation was maybe 2 years ago, and I've been thinking about color more and more ever since. I think it's visible in my work, but I don't discuss it that much. The most I say about color is HOW MUCH I HATE THE COLOR GREEN AND HOW I CANNOT PAINT WITH IT TO SAVE MY LIFE. WHEN I PAINT A RAINBOW, I DON'T EVEN BOTHER WITH GREEN. I don't know what green looks like!!! I've never lived in a green environment!! There is green ALL around me, but it doesn't *look* green! Does that make sense at all? The environment doesn't look green. It looks brown, yellow, and blue. I've seen photographs of green, where it looks like the air tastes like green, but I have no idea how to paint that color. Whenever I paint green ... I paint yellow leaves with blue shadows. And that is just not the same as green.

I've come to feel like environment plays a massive part in color perception? And it's different for every single person?

I can't imagine a world without a word for blue. EVERYTHING has blue in it. But look at my earliest years? Alaska is almost strictly blue. And dark. And rainy. And covered in little blue Forget Me Not scrubby flowers.  But thinking about it, if I grew up in a desert culture, I probably wouldn't bother much with a word for blue either.

Or a KumoriCon couch.

OR a KumoriCon space station, I mean, whatever.

So yaaaaaaaaaaah. I have an AA table at Kumoricon! Just need a place to sleep during the con shenanigans. Hopefully looking for other artists? Or other people who want to sleep? I usually sleep around midnight while at cons.

If I don't find anyone, I'll sleep in a box on the street. It'll be fun. *battles that hobo for the cushy underside of that rickety porch*

I always love it when people do this!!! And I am just hyper enough right now to want to do it too! _{uuuuuh I ate some really sugary cookies earlier ....}

If you leave a comment to get a feature, it'd be really good of you to go spawn your own feature journal!!! Spread the luvin!

Once you leave a comment, I go look at your gallery and pick my favorite two images. ^^

In progress atm.....

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Still promising that TG isn't dead. *I* have personally died of stress, but I will resurrect soon I'm sure. c: lol. by the time I'm able to update TG steadily again, there will be no one interested in reading it. XD OH WELL. UNLESS YOU WANT STICK FIGURES. I COULD DO SOME BADLY RENDERED STICK FIGURES RIGHT NOW.

Presently I'm fighting with an evil computer that will no longer start up. :/ Taking the stupid thing to a repair shop tomorrow. This is the computer with the printer, and the printer is unreasonably important to my watercolor painting shenanigans. I have to print the digital sketches so that I can lightbox them onto watercolor paper. <- A less polite way of putting it would be to say I don't have the balls to touch a pencil to this SUPER EXPENSIVE EASILY RUINED watercolor paper.

I wonder, REALLY, if "traditional media" should any longer be called that? Not a single piece of art I do remains untouched by computers. From research to roughing and sketching is all so digital. Granted, all you see of it is "traditional," but even now when I see a digital vs. traditional argument I just roll my eyes. Seriously. Both better at different things. Pick the one best suited to the desired final result.

Anyway, I will sit in the AX artist alley at table A47 I think. So, front row of the artist alley, to the right hand side of everything as you walk through the main entrance.

And how about that new printing of Sailor Moon? I just got book 1. Is anyone else finding the translation jarring? O_o No more "meat ball head" or "silver imperium crystal" ..... I guess this translation is more accurate to the original, but I miss these Englishisms particularly. ;__;

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WHAT IS TOILET GENIE?
TG is a weekly webcomic that I draw, write, and publish. c: It is dark fantasy, currently rated 13+. The story follows a pug which discovers a genie living in a toilet. Through a series of odd events, the pug is turned into a woman. Before she can forfill her destiny (whatever that may be...) she must learn the story of how the genie came to live in the toilet.

WHEN DOES TG UPDATE?!
TG updates ~ Thursdays. But if the page is done early, it updates early. If the page would benefit from more time, it updates late.

COMMISSIONS/TRADES/FREE ART
I'm always interested in commissions, but I may turn them down if I'm cramped for time. Trades are a possibility, but unlikely. If you have to *ask* me for free art, chances are I will not give it to you.

This is kind of the unofficial announcement that the sketchbooks are now for sale? I had bigger announcements and art postings and things planned ..... but I feel impatient. XD SO HERE ARE SKETCHBOOKS!!! The top three listings of TG's shop are them.

Most interesting to me, anyway, is the special edition. It comes with an excuse for me to sit around drawing my characters forever and ever! (er, it comes with a sketch of your choice.)

If you already got a copy of the book from me at Fanime or A-kon but you're interested in a special edition or postcards, please note me, we can talk about it. It's totally doable with some finagling.

DIGITAL DOWNLOADS:
I'm wanting to offer them, but I'm not actually sure how, so I haven't listed them for sale yet. If you're wanting a digital download, tell me how you typically receive such things. I was thinking to upload the digital copy to stash for your downloading and viewing pleasure, but maybe there are better options out there?

DIGITAL DOWNLOADS IN EXCHANGE FOR FANART:
Fanart totally gets to be currency today! As soon as I figure out how best to digitally distribute this sketchbook, anyone who has drawn fanart or written fanfiction is eligible for free digital viewing of the sketchbook and all its extra shinies. X3 That's past fanstuffs or future fanstuffs. 8D Anything, all of it, I LOVE IT ALL. +_________+ My eyes gleam in the dark for it.

I could draw some interesting comics about getting this book to exist .... uuuuh maybe later in more journals to come. XD I'm sure I'll be pimping this book for the next month.

But I just want to say here that whoever did city planning for Seattle in its early stages was retarded. Driving around the warehouses to find this box of books was the most ridiculous drive ever. o_____o;;;;; I was on this road, and it was just going strait. The gps showed it going strait. And it was going strait. There was no where for it to go other than strait, with a highway on one side and the harbor on the other. So logically, this road should continue going strait.

AND THEN IT SWOOPED OFF ON THIS CRAZY RAMP GOING OVER THE WATER WHAT THE HELL WHERE IS THIS ROAD GOING AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!

At this point I had only 10 min left before the warehouse was closing for the day. NOT A TIME FOR CHICKEN DRIVING. I stopped in the middle of the road, veered around the ramp, dove onto this tiny little alley that was under the ramp or something, and kept going strait across what looked like a 7 way intersection with no stop light. O_o Firstly, 7 way intersection? Secondly, no stop light? For 7 roads all merging?

This was during rush hour traffic right before memorial day weekend, btw.

And this road shenanigan was after I stupidly drove in front of a baseball stadium that was having a home game. (traffic jam with traffic cops) But in all fairness, the drive in front of the baseball stadium was to avoid driving down THE CRAZY JAM PACKED DEAD STOPPED MASSIVE HIGHWAY that the gps seemed to think was clear with no delays.

GPS YOU LIE BOX. YOU CAN RECALCULATE WHILE I THROW YOU OUT THE WINDOW.

I arrived at the warehouse 5 minutes before closing.

There was a point where I ran a red light in there. CLEARLY RUNNING THAT RED WAS MERITED. There was that five minutes.

And then I packed even more books into my luggage and flew away to Fanime. XD

Fanime and A-kon were both super awesome, btw! Except for all the crazy things that went wrong. O_o Like arriving at Fanime and discovering that I would have to drag all 200lb of my luggage through a registration line that was four hours long .... thankfully two fellows helped me. >< Or I would have died.

And apparently now the possibility of death due to AA has been verified as a true concern? Because *Cinnamoron had to go to the hospital at A-kon. 8( Not really sure what caused it. Stress, I would imagine, being that it was a racing heart beat that wouldn't slow down. Of course, there will be no scientific proof of my stress diagnosis. So I went to the hospital with *Cinnamoron while *RadiusZero cleared all the things off our tables. You remember that Artist Alley 101 panel I was giving at A-kon? I missed most of it during this drama. XDDDD Maybe next year I'll try again to give my presentation.

So, aaaaaaaaaaaaaah///// sorry for this word pile. It was an extreme week. I'll try to be around more to answer comments now. ><

In the coming days, I have an art pile to upload. @_____@ Associated with the sketchbook. So apologies to anyone not buying it and not interested, it's going to inundate you. And for everyone who IS interested in a copy, please, I'd love to reply to any questions you have. X3 I'm so excited for this sketchbook!!!!!



I don't think I say it enough, but only because I can't figure out how to say it interestingly ... but thank you to everyone who has stuck with TG throughout all the difficulties I've had producing it. Producing this work makes my life so much more .... interesting.... ^^ and none of it would be possible without the support my work receives financially. And in fanart and comment currency which doesn't feed me but amuses me to no end. XDDDDD



thank you~~~~

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WHAT IS TOILET GENIE?
TG is a weekly webcomic that I draw, write, and publish. c: It is dark fantasy, currently rated 13+. The story follows a pug which discovers a genie living in a toilet. Through a series of odd events, the pug is turned into a woman. Before she can forfill her destiny (whatever that may be...) she must learn the story of how the genie came to live in the toilet.

WHEN DOES TG UPDATE?!
TG updates ~ Thursdays. But if the page is done early, it updates early. If the page would benefit from more time, it updates late.

COMMISSIONS/TRADES/FREE ART
I'm always interested in commissions, but I may turn them down if I'm cramped for time. Trades are a possibility, but unlikely. If you have to *ask* me for free art, chances are I will not give it to you.

THE TG SKETCHBOOKS. THEY FINALLY EXIST. AND THEY WERE AT FANIME AND NOW WILL BE AT A-KON, except in limited quantities because I could only bring 200lb worth of luggage. x____x Not even an exaggeration, there.

X3 I will probably bitch more about the picking up of the sketchbooks at a later date, as it was an excessive amount of adventure.

S-so. >< I'll be doing two panels at A-kon, Artist Alley 101 and Digital Coloring! O_O <3 I'm super nervous, i hope some people can come, but if you can't that's alright. My AA table will be somewhere in the webcomic section.

+ will be at A-kon too!

See you later ~~~~~ thank you for reading my journals. o______o;;; And following my art. *hide*

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WHAT IS TOILET GENIE?
TG is a weekly webcomic that I draw, write, and publish. c: It is dark fantasy, currently rated 13+. The story follows a pug which discovers a genie living in a toilet. Through a series of odd events, the pug is turned into a woman. Before she can forfill her destiny (whatever that may be...) she must learn the story of how the genie came to live in the toilet.

WHEN DOES TG UPDATE?!
TG updates ~ Thursdays. But if the page is done early, it updates early. If the page would benefit from more time, it updates late.

COMMISSIONS/TRADES/FREE ART
I'm always interested in commissions, but I may turn them down if I'm cramped for time. Trades are a possibility, but unlikely. If you have to *ask* me for free art, chances are I will not give it to you.

A sketch panel from page 112. "Don't wish on magical creatures unless you're wishing to die."
So he swallows the magical creature that offers him the power to wake the underworld.
V: "I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY I FEEL SICK NOW."
TG is a pile of fairy wishes that shouldn't happen. XD The fish is the worst troll of all.

Er, I'm not dead yet. 8< Nearly. But not quite. TG updated with pages 110+111! [link]

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Here are pictures of the sketchbook's test printing:


It will be 24 pages long and instead of black and white, the whole book is in color. c: (Not a lot of color... not like cmyk renderbation all over everything. But tinted pencil art is pretty.) It's standard comic size. I decided on these things (vs. more pages or a smaller size or black and white, all options that were discussed) because I thought it would turn out the best product ... bigger, full color, less pages, selective higher quality sketches. And 5$. Which is I price I would personally pay for a similar item from other artists, so I hope it won't turn anyone off.

I'm waiting for the printed books to arrive before selling any copies online. >< So no waiting! No preorders. No kickstarter, which gave me nightmares during chapter 2. Just buying books and mailing books. It was thankfully a really reasonable price for these sketchbooks. .... Chapter 3 will be stress enough, putting together a giant kickstarter for it, since it will be a giant book. T__T

There will be another journal and more art postings later when the sketchbook is actually available. I think I will have it for Fanime! c:

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and I will be at Calgary Expo. 8D It's the first/only Canadian con I've ever done. I hope it will be ok. I'm already really nervous. I've enjoyed Canada every time I've visited, but I have never been to Calgary, so I'm really looking forward to it. X3

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WHAT IS TOILET GENIE?
TG is a weekly webcomic that I draw, write, and publish. c: It is dark fantasy, currently rated 13+. The story follows a pug which discovers a genie living in a toilet. Through a series of odd events, the pug is turned into a woman. Before she can forfill her destiny (whatever that may be...) she must learn the story of how the genie came to live in the toilet.

WHEN DOES TG UPDATE?!
TG updates ~ Thursdays. But if the page is done early, it updates early. If the page would benefit from more time, it updates late.

COMMISSIONS/TRADES/FREE ART
I'm always interested in commissions, but I may turn them down if I'm cramped for time. Trades are a possibility, but unlikely. If you have to *ask* me for free art, chances are I will not give it to you.

I'm sitting there with %D

Sorry for complete internet silence from me lately. "FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF" doesn't begin to cover the level of busy and overworked I'm at. x____X

Did finish sketchbook for TG, but won't be printed for ages and ages (read: won't be printed until Fanime.)

Am working on TG. (Been working on the same double page spread for all of March I think. All I need are a few hours to just work on it. @____@ Geeez. Just a few strait hours.)

Currently working on commissions no one gets to see. And I think all of March went towards preparing for ECCC, Sakura, and Calgary, which are all happening in such quick succession it's hard for me to do anything else but sketch random dumb things between shows.

DX I can't quote it exactly, but it keeps running through my head. The battle is bad enough, but waiting on the eve of one that is unavoidable is worse. I think that sort of applies to conventions. I would rather be in the middle of the show than waiting for it to begin. Because I am that soldier who packs the toothpaste, the bedroll, the hand sanitation (necessary for battle, ABSOLUTELY), the knife sharpener, the extra socks, the fabric cleaner, the hair brush, the toe nail clippers, AND THEN I FUCKING FORGET THE SWORD.  The con version of "sword" is "pikachu prints." Or maybe "TG books."

A few nights ago I had a nightmare that it was Sunday of Sakura Con. I was in a random parking garage or something. It was dark, there was only a little light coming through small cement windows. It was the exact setting where one would expect to be stuck up at knife point, throw your cash on the ground! But rather than being mugged or chased by zombies or whatever, the entirety of the dream was me suddenly realizing it was SUNDAY OF SAKURA CON AND I FORGOT TO SHOW UP. I was wearing cloths though, so at least it wasn't a naked dream. <~ exact in dream logic that occurred. It really was on my mind that this had to be some sort of dream, as I'd never actually forget to attend a con. More like, if this was a real scenario, I'd be present and fail completely. So it had to be a dream.

And it was a dream. O_o

At least I'll never forget my toothbrush ever again. Last year at A-kon, I forgot my toothbrush and I had to use *RadiusZero's toothbrush. =____=;;;;; I've never been so intimate with another human being. eeeeuuuur.

//ramblesbecausepackingishard. T____T I'M GOING TO FORGET EVERYTHING. I'M GOING TO FORGET UNDERWEAR. WHEN YOU TALK TO ME AT SAKURA, UNDERSTAND THAT I AM PROBABLY GOING COMMANDO. 8D DRAFTY!

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WHAT IS TOILET GENIE?
TG is a weekly webcomic that I draw, write, and publish. c: It is dark fantasy, currently rated 13+. The story follows a pug which discovers a genie living in a toilet. Through a series of odd events, the pug is turned into a woman. Before she can forfill her destiny (whatever that may be...) she must learn the story of how the genie came to live in the toilet.

WHEN DOES TG UPDATE?!
TG updates ~ Thursdays. But if the page is done early, it updates early. If the page would benefit from more time, it updates late.

COMMISSIONS/TRADES/FREE ART
I'm always interested in commissions, but I may turn them down if I'm cramped for time. Trades are a possibility, but unlikely. If you have to *ask* me for free art, chances are I will not give it to you.

Titan Magic by ~juniorel

Titan magic has reached 1500 downloads! X3 And that was a few hours ago.
And as I write this, it's #82 in free kindle books. That's incredible! O_O And the day is only half done.

EDIT: If US Amazon isn't your country's Amazon, I'm pretty sure you can still make a US Amazon account. c: Once that account is made, you can download the book for free. Kindle actually stocks a bunch of free books, including free classics. For examples of other free books, see the Top 100 Free list.

Just for today, the 10th of March, it is free for download from Amazon. :3 Even if you don't have time right now for reading, just go snag it while it's free. 8D The book will always be available to you in your cloud if you download it today.

Kindle books can also be read on a PC. FYI.

O_o I dunno how to write endorsements. I liked the book. I wouldn't be painting cover art for book 2 if book 1 was a slog through stinking word bogs. It is fast paced, which is the main thing, and about characters who are decently developed, which is the OTHER main thing. If you're one of those fantastic people who read words, this item is for you.

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WHAT IS TOILET GENIE?
TG is a weekly webcomic that I draw, write, and publish. c: It is dark fantasy, currently rated 13+. The story follows a pug which discovers a genie living in a toilet. Through a series of odd events, the pug is turned into a woman. Before she can forfill her destiny (whatever that may be...) she must learn the story of how the genie came to live in the toilet.

WHEN DOES TG UPDATE?!
TG updates ~ Thursdays. But if the page is done early, it updates early. If the page would benefit from more time, it updates late.

COMMISSIONS/TRADES/FREE ART
I'm always interested in commissions, but I may turn them down if I'm cramped for time. Trades are a possibility, but unlikely. If you have to *ask* me for free art, chances are I will not give it to you.

ARE YOU READING IT? IS IT GOOD? TORTURE ME WITH SLIGHT SPOILERS OH GOD OH GOD I NEED THEM.

I won't get to read this book for a while and it's already consuming me with the need to read it because I CAN'T. +__+ NO TIME. NO MONEY. AAUAadf;lakjsdlfkjasdl;kfjasdljklajksdf I haven't been this excited for a book SERIOUSLY FOR REAL since HP 7. Or the Return of the King movie.

If you have no idea what I'm talking about, start here.

I know I keep fanarting pokemon and various other culty movies, but the thing I MOST want to fanart is anything by Patricia Briggs. @___@ But I could never do it justice. I've sketched a bunch of her characters a bunch of times, but my sketches all suck. <~ How I feel about my LotR sketches, too. fffff I love Mercy and Anna and Seraph and Charles and Adam so much. +___+ <3 <3 <3 And WarrenxKyle.

XDDDDD I've been so unproductive tonight. Knowing this book came out today and I couldn't have it has worked me up too much.

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WHAT IS TOILET GENIE?
TG is a weekly webcomic that I draw, write, and publish. c: It is dark fantasy, currently rated 13+. The story follows a pug which discovers a genie living in a toilet. Through a series of odd events, the pug is turned into a woman. Before she can forfill her destiny (whatever that may be...) she must learn the story of how the genie came to live in the toilet.

WHEN DOES TG UPDATE?!
TG updates ~ Thursdays. But if the page is done early, it updates early. If the page would benefit from more time, it updates late.

COMMISSIONS/TRADES/FREE ART
I'm always interested in commissions, but I may turn them down if I'm cramped for time. Trades are a possibility, but unlikely. If you have to *ask* me for free art, chances are I will not give it to you.

I need to draw one. It's easy enough to pick one that looks pretty, and I'll probably make artistic alterations. But I'd like the base design for the guitar to be one that's recognizable and also considered a good guitar in use. Something for medium to advanced skill level that could be used on one's own in practice or in a band.

Tell me also about the magical box electric guitars are plugged into. I know even less about those and should probably draw one with the guitar.

The project the guitar is for is a fire themed set of cloths in a goth/punk style.

[link] I'm currently looking at this guitar as a good reference. It looks common enough to be recognized while possibly quality enough to be considered better than beginner level? And it's pretty.

See, I could research for an hour, but I still wouldn't know popular opinion. I trust you more to share opinions then to just go out and guess at it myself.

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WHAT IS TOILET GENIE?
TG is a weekly webcomic that I draw, write, and publish. c: It is dark fantasy, currently rated 13+. The story follows a pug which discovers a genie living in a toilet. Through a series of odd events, the pug is turned into a woman. Before she can forfill her destiny (whatever that may be...) she must learn the story of how the genie came to live in the toilet.

WHEN DOES TG UPDATE?!
TG updates ~ Thursdays. But if the page is done early, it updates early. If the page would benefit from more time, it updates late.

COMMISSIONS/TRADES/FREE ART
I'm always interested in commissions, but I may turn them down if I'm cramped for time. Trades are a possibility, but unlikely. If you have to *ask* me for free art, chances are I will not give it to you.

Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeh it's been a good birthday. I should like to have birthdays more frequently in the future, as it is a good excuse to receive fanart.

Thank you so much for all the birthday wishes! I've spent the day drawing whatever the hell I want. ^_____^ MEANING ... I painted unicorns.

I know I haven't updated at all, really, over the past month. x___X But TG has updated with three pages. I promise I'm working on piles of things, I haven't just crawled off and died or anything.

Going back to painting unicorns.

Thank you so much for continuing to watch my art and my comic even when I vanish completely for a month or more.

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WHAT IS TOILET GENIE?
TG is a weekly webcomic that I draw, write, and publish. c: It is dark fantasy, currently rated 13+. The story follows a pug which discovers a genie living in a toilet. Through a series of odd events, the pug is turned into a woman. Before she can forfill her destiny (whatever that may be...) she must learn the story of how the genie came to live in the toilet.

WHEN DOES TG UPDATE?!
TG updates ~ Thursdays. But if the page is done early, it updates early. If the page would benefit from more time, it updates late.

COMMISSIONS/TRADES/FREE ART
I'm always interested in commissions, but I may turn them down if I'm cramped for time. Trades are a possibility, but unlikely. If you have to *ask* me for free art, chances are I will not give it to you.

If anyone would ever like me to do watercolor livestreams, I need advice. 8(

It's that I don't have any of the technology to do an internet watercolor demonstration or really know what that technology is. XD I feel lame, I'm so clueless. O_o

Some kind of camera.... on a tripod that would sit it over a painting (lens pointing vertically down. Watercolors aren't on easels.)

Does anyone have product recommendations for this?

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WHAT IS TOILET GENIE?
TG is a weekly webcomic that I draw, write, and publish. c: It is dark fantasy, currently rated 13+. The story follows a pug which discovers a genie living in a toilet. Through a series of odd events, the pug is turned into a woman. Before she can forfill her destiny (whatever that may be...) she must learn the story of how the genie came to live in the toilet.

WHEN DOES TG UPDATE?!
TG updates ~ Thursdays. But if the page is done early, it updates early. If the page would benefit from more time, it updates late.

COMMISSIONS/TRADES/FREE ART
I'm always interested in commissions, but I may turn them down if I'm cramped for time. Trades are a possibility, but unlikely. If you have to *ask* me for free art, chances are I will not give it to you.

And New Years resolutions, but that doesn't fit in the journal title.

I've heard it from a bunch of sources that if you want something to happen in a certain way, you have to start by believing it's possible, and believing it's possible starts by speaking it. Is this something you've thought much about?

Always I have felt like saying something made it more real. Usually in a bad way. Like if I were to talk about a nightmare, or give a ghost a name, those things would become more real. Or if I feel something I'd rather not, as soon as I speak about those feelings, they become a reality, but if I leave them silent they are more likely to float away.

The converse is something I've heard other people say is true, but I don't know how much I believe it, and without belief, I wonder if saying it would do any good. You know, like if you want to lose weight, you tell yourself in the mirror that you are going to and that you have already started down the right path. You do this every day, along with diet and work out of course, and gradually you change your mentality to one that is more conducing to success (vs. telling yourself you are fat, and so you remain fat.)

I guess I should believe this works and can help bring about success. (I see even now I am not saying any certainties. Only that it MAY help.)

In my own life, I see tiny evidence. When I put down a first layer of paint on a watercolor painting, it almost always looks hideous. Nothing like the final painting would look like. It has taken a lot of practice to keep myself from immediately giving up at that stage. Instead of telling myself the painting is a failure, I remind myself that the painting needs a lot of work yet before any judgement can be made. There is no telling failure or success. This ugly underpainting may evolve into the first step of something beautiful. Now I have done so many paintings, I have enough personal evidence to believe this is true.

Or with weight. My entire childhood, my family and friends called me fat and ugly. There was no other voice saying anything else. And so that is what I was. When I moved 2000 miles away to take my degree, the stress of school caused something like a freshman -35. Suddenly being skinny and away from every voice of failure changed my opinion of myself. Complete strangers had nothing negative to say about my looks. It was shocking. My beliefs were altered forever and the possibilities suddenly became a graspable reality.

But these instances I feel are small success brought on by outside forces that enabled me to believe.

What I need now is to believe a thing is possible without an outside force to influence me. I am surrounded again by voices of failure, now without a way to escape or the hope of returning to school where I had freedom.

The past month, I feel like my life has been shrouded in this horrible black veil that I can't see beyond. ;__; All I can believe for myself is talentless failure.

I have reminded myself daily of my dreams, but I don't think just thoughts are enough. I need to speak about these dreams. Like maybe admitting to dreaming would help the dreams become something real. Maybe hiding them keeps them from existing.

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These are my dreams, no matter how far fetched or unrealistic they are ~
(And I'm not going to be vague. I'm going to be agonizingly specific.)

Someday, I want to paint a card design for Magic: the Gathering. :< AT LEAST ONE. I've been staring at those cards since high school. My life will not be complete until I have painted one. I will pursue this until I either paint one or die. OR I will paint one, print my painting, AND TAPE IT TO THE DAMN CARD. I will find some random card with a title indicative of a wolf monster or an elf or something and tape my painting to it! But that is kind of a last resort. I'd rather do it for reals.

I don't just want to finish TG. I want it to be printed all together as a hard bound book and just for one month, maybe towards the end of TG, I want it to be in the top 10 on TWC. +___+ Even if I die trying to update two or three times a week to do this and buy advertising a lot, I want it! I WILL NOT BE ASHAMED OF COVETING READERS OR VOTES. I work so hard, for nearly nothing, I will want what I want!

I WANT TO MOVE IN WITH *RadiusZero! 8( Our finances are going to work out. Her student loans are going to stop being stupid and I am going to either find a wonderful freelance job or TG will suddenly start making better than it is. I don't care which, one or the other or all of the addressed, BUT IT WILL HAPPEN.

I WILL PRINT A SKETCHBOOK. THERE WILL BE FUNDING FOR IT. SOMEHOW. NO ADDENDUM ON THIS. IT IS GOING TO HAPPEN.

Before TG concludes, I would like one more page at least to get a DD here on DA. :/ One of the watercolor spreads. There are some really awesome images lurking at the end of chapter three that will push me beyond all artistic limits. 8( If I survive chapter three, it will be a feat worthy of a DD.

I have read this job application so many times. I have used it to build a happy fantasy in which I have the courage to apply or a portfolio to apply with. Someday I want to apply to this job or a similar one, and I want to be hired, and I want to move to a city I wouldn't otherwise have moved to, and I want to work that job for as long as it is right to do so. I dream also of such a job helping to develop my skills and of getting to work with artists much better than myself.

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There, I've written them down. I will not contemplate further on the reasons none of them may ever happen. Fuck the reasons.

If you want to try and practice speaking a dream so you can believe in it, please, go ahead and comment.

Thank you for reading my dreams. I just don't want to forget them.

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I also promised myself recently that the next time I wrote a journal, I would feature some of the recent fanart I've received. <3 Because these people, they put so much effort into their work, it shocked me.  They all deserve so much more love than I can give.

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WHAT IS TOILET GENIE?
TG is a weekly webcomic that I draw, write, and publish. c: It is dark fantasy, currently rated 13+. The story follows a pug which discovers a genie living in a toilet. Through a series of odd events, the pug is turned into a woman. Before she can forfill her destiny (whatever that may be...) she must learn the story of how the genie came to live in the toilet.

WHEN DOES TG UPDATE?!
TG updates ~ Thursdays. But if the page is done early, it updates early. If the page would benefit from more time, it updates late.

COMMISSIONS/TRADES/FREE ART
I'm always interested in commissions, but I may turn them down if I'm cramped for time. Trades are a possibility, but unlikely. If you have to *ask* me for free art, chances are I will not give it to you.

I hope you are having a good time today. Holidays and all that.

Here is a Christmas doodle!

D8 I must go now. Short message is short. I haven't wrapped any gifts yet and have to leave soon.

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WHAT IS TOILET GENIE?
TG is a weekly webcomic that I draw, write, and publish. c: It is dark fantasy, currently rated 13+. The story follows a pug which discovers a genie living in a toilet. Through a series of odd events, the pug is turned into a woman. Before she can forfill her destiny (whatever that may be...) she must learn the story of how the genie came to live in the toilet.

WHEN DOES TG UPDATE?!
TG updates ~ Thursdays. But if the page is done early, it updates early. If the page would benefit from more time, it updates late.

COMMISSIONS/TRADES/FREE ART
I'm always interested in commissions, but I may turn them down if I'm cramped for time. Trades are a possibility, but unlikely. If you have to *ask* me for free art, chances are I will not give it to you.